CUTIEMARKS (And the Things That Bind Us)

by Vylet Pony

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Are we defined by the marks that we’ve earned? Or is there another chance to live again? My heart’s been ever so heavy. Isn’t it enough to know my purpose? It seems I’ll never spread my wings. Am I just not strong enough? The things that bind us conspire in the open. Our frailty exposed in blood. Cutiemarks A tale as old as time. Fashion us a future In an emblem of our only shot. — There’s a place in your mind Where every dream resides Let it out, scream and shout It’s your own damn life Wear your heart on your sleeve It’s the only way to live Everything will fall into place You’ll see Cutiemarks A curse that ails us so Binding every wandering soul still, To the status quo Sing a song about life Through the pain and strife Don’t hold back It’s okay Don’t hold back It’s okay
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BONNIE 04:21
(From Lyra’s Perspective) Oh Bonnie I’ve been trying to escape From this stupid fucking phase I call love Oh Bonnie Won’t you show me how to live? I’ve been under a rock Since I was a filly. Oh Bonnie Do you remember who I am? You picked me up when I was At my lowest Oh no — Get home at 7pm Nothing to do Been getting fucked up at school again Just wanna talk to you It’s been practice, practice, practice For the recital coming up But I’d rather be online Cuz I don’t really give a fuck — Bonnie Won’t you show me how to live? I’ve been under a rock Since I was a filly. Oh Bonnie Do you remember who I am? You picked me up when I was At my lowest Oh no — I’ve been thinking about you Since you left You said we’d be best friends But you’re stuck in my head Oh won’t you call me back Secret Agent Sweetie Drops Let’s forget this whole facade My lovely lesbian hotshot Oh please just call me back Oh let’s just dance together It’ll be alright — (From BonBon’s Perspective) Did you ever read the letters I sent? I left them on your desk when we were young. I’ve felt this way for a really long time. But I was so scared, so scared. Am I normal? Is this feeling right? It’s hard to keep on living when I see no light. For a while I had asked, should I fucking die? Oh who am I? Will I live tonight? — I wish it were easy To tell you The demons I face When I sleep at night I just want to look after The soul you’ve let decay If you won’t love yourself Let me hold you and stay I remember I remember So let me try again Let me live again
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ANTONYMPH 04:02
I messaged somepony Over Tumblr last night She said “RAWR X3” So it’s true love at first sight Throw on my kandi bracelets Now I’m headed to class I’m still 20% So get your head out your ass — I’m the antonymph Of the internet Still cleaning up the viruses That you had left I think I’m falling In love again (love again) Don’t stop, don’t stop Until you hear the (yay) I’m the antonymph Of the internet Been fighting on Newgrounds Over if my love is valid Fuck the cynicism Let the colours fly Don’t care you think it’s cringe Because it’s not your life — She said do you like waffles? I said HELL YEAH! Been watching Equals Three Until 2am I ain’t got no iPhone But I got a DS With a keychain of Pinkie Her cupcakez are the best I’ve been failing my classes Cuz I don’t give a damn They say the world is my oyster But the free market’s a scam Everything has been changing Since last generation was born And they won’t try to take in Change is a two edged sword — I’m the antonymph Of the internet Still cleaning up the viruses That you had left I think I’m falling In love again (love again) Don’t stop, don’t stop Until you- I’m the antonymph Of the internet Been fighting on Newgrounds Over if my love is valid Fuck the cynicism Let the colours fly Don’t care you think it’s cringe Because it’s not your life — It’s never too late To fall in love with the world Your past is not today So set your stride with a twirl Yeah we’ve all made mistakes before That’s a fact of life But once you restitch your heart You’ll be just fine Now it’s you’re life You’ll say “It’s all mine! All mine…” Revel in your friends and hobbies Let your heart just speak When a drifter says some shit Just block that internet freak — I’m the antonymph Of the internet Still cleaning up the viruses That you had left I think I’m falling In love again (love again) Don’t stop, don’t stop Until you- I’m the antonymph Of the internet Been fighting on Newgrounds Over if my love is valid Fuck the cynicism Let the colours fly Don’t care you think it’s cringe Because it’s not your life
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It’s 4:27 in the afternoon 20 missed texts from you (I’m sorry) We were up all night getting Friendly with each other (I miss you, it’s magic) Staring at the mirror gotta smile, smile Don’t be late, we got plans It’s time to start a fucking riot, riot I’m so tired of keeping myself in a box — And I just really don’t care Put your hooves in the air tonight I wanna fall in love with everypony We gotta set the streets alight Everything’s so fucked and I’m tired of being scared So let’s get out and fuck up Equestria Fuck the mandate and monarchy This is our world now, gotta go fast — Step off or you’re gonna get cut We ain’t got time for your bigoted rut This has been a warning shot — no no, you’re not hot Discourse is the consequence of the hatred you brought All we need is some laughter The world is on fire And we’re at the center Of it all We’ll make out till the sun sets And we’ll do crime till we get dead — And I just really don’t care Put your hooves in the air tonight I wanna fall in love with everypony We gotta set the streets alight Everything’s so fucked and I’m tired of being scared So let’s get out and fuck up Equestria Fuck the mandate and monarchy This is our world now, our world now, our world now — I don’t know what the future holds But we’ll figure it all out in time — And I just really don’t care Put your hooves in the air tonight I wanna fall in love with everypony We gotta set the streets alight Everything’s so fucked and I’m tired of being scared So let’s get out and fuck up Equestria Fuck the mandate and monarchy This is our world now, our world now, our world now
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SYNDICATE 03:07
I got diamonds on my neck So I aint really tripping boutta Street rat like yourself You walked through the door At the stroke of midnight You were really up to No good So tell me what I want And give me what I need And I’ll make sure you Go free Cuz it’s real tight shit In the Syndicate When you sell your soul To the Syndicate — We’ve been falling on hard times Can’t you see With the flick of this trigger It’s history Brushin’ my tail From side to side Sweepin’ the shells in red Look at me when I’m talking to you Oh, baby I can feel your heartbeat How’s a lady like me getting caught in the fray? Just sit still for me, darling. So there I was Shot em dead in the vault I knew what had to be done — They’ve been having us by a string They cut us off and never look back So we make them bleed Bleed Bleed Bleed So we make them bleed Bleed Bleed Bleed — So we make them bleed Bleed Bleed Bleed So we make them bleed Bleed Bleed Bleed
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WAYFARER 03:57
I didn’t know That I could still love you Still I wondered Every day I think dreamt of you The other night No short-lived Memory Look how far you’ve come Becoming somepony brand new I’ve been a wayfarer so long But when I came home, you were still you Somehow I knew we’d end up further What did I get us into? Still my heart is breaking No magic could heal these wounds — I wish I could tell you Tell you But I don’t wanna fuck this up Like I have before Think it’d be better If I just shut my mouth Cuz I hate how I look How I sound I just can’t help this feeling of Falling in love Still proxying my feelings On a digital dove I’ve been back in Sire’s Hollow for a really long time now So why do you feel so Far away? — [Nov 5, 2012] “Hello Brandon? Yeah. You know me.” (Call-waiting Jingle) — Can you hear me? Can you hear me? From all those miles away. Can you hear me? Can you hear me? From all those miles away. Can you hear me? Can you hear me? From all those miles away. Can you hear me? Can you hear me? From all those miles away. — I’m just so scared putting all this Pressure on you I care so much, but I’ve still Got these feelings too Everytime I hear you laugh I feel like I’m ok So I’ll never talk I swear I’ll never say — I just can’t help this feeling of Falling in love Still proxying my feelings On a digital dove I’ve been back in Sire’s Hollow for a really long time now So why do you feel so Far away?
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Why are you so protective Of the way that I am? I can do this by myself Don’t you understand? I don’t need to be fixed I’ll make this life my own And if they laugh at me I’ll make your heart my home — Do you know, do you know, do you know, do you know? That it’s alright? I was tripping on the phone again You sounded so depressed Will you tell, will you tell, will you tell, will you tell? Was it you or me? I just don’t know what went wrong. Just wanted to make you smile — Don’t cry no more Don’t cry no more Don’t cry no more I’m right here with you — It’s been a while, You’ve got the prettiest voice They’re so lucky to have you You were the obvious choice I’m not that great at dancing, still you’re leading me anyway. What’s this feeling I’m having? I just want you to stay. — Woke up that morning Had a missed text from you ‘Said you wanted tell me something “Oh fuck, what did I do” Pulled hair out my mane And over-ate again This anxiety’s killing me Did I just forget? — Could you say that again? I spaced out, I don’t know why I think I lost myself To the twinkle in your eye I know you’re saying something Hear it piece by piece Is it your racing heart? Or the red in your cheeks — Do you know, do you know, do you know, do you know? That you’re my best friend Your voice is cracking, now. Have you been crying again? Will you tell, will you tell, will you tell, will you tell? If I can hold you close? “Please just tell me what’s on your mind.” you said. Do you know, do you know, do you know, do you know? I’m so much better than then I won’t change for nopony. Something’s just around the bend. Will you tell, will you tell, will you tell, will you tell? Can we meet somewhere? Couldn’t see where we’d been going Cuz my heart’s been in the air — We’ve been dancing for so long And now I understand I’m in love I’m in love I’m in love with you That silent smile That you smile at me Tell me what’s on your mind Tell me what’s on your mind Cuz I don’t know I’ve been trying Cuz I don’t know Cuz I’ve been trying
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ou don’t really wanna know What I’m thinking I’ve been trying just for you Tryna fake it So hurry and brush off This old’ Griffon I’ve been relapsing Think I might just lose it Our friendship doesn’t matter No it just won’t help I’ve been crying alone In a featherbound hell For a second I would Lay it all beside myself I’m a victim of protagonist syndrome Protagonist syndrome Protagonist syndrome Our friendship doesn’t matter No it just won’t help I’ve been crying alone In a featherbound hell For a second I would Lay it all beside myself I’m a victim of protagonist syndrome — Please pardon this aggression Can’t you see I’m stressin I wanna help you, I really do But I still can’t help myself — I just don’t know How to tell you It’s not the same As it used to be Fighting the cynic Behind these piercing eyes If only you could feel my racing heart, heart, heart Oh, heart, heart, heart Been living the lie that you told for me You tell me feel free to smile — Baila conmigo, El tiempo se acaba Como de arrogante Es ser un heroe Baila conmigo, El tiempo se acaba Como de arrogante Es ser un heroe
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ISOMETRICA 04:25
(Sing a song about life) Oh, stop smiling I’m gonna punch your fucking face in I’m sick and tired of your god damn pacing Cuz you know that you dunnit Dunnit Dunnit Gun it — Isometrica Push and pull and change and kill your past. Did you know You’re not a waste of space? You’re good despite All that — Don’t you understand You made me this way? So don’t complain Don’t complain You made me the villain That you needed from me Committing purpose To this pain Isometrica listen to my heart this brand new start we thought we had Please don’t ever Call me again Call me again Call me again — You made me wanna Kill myself But now you’re just an empty shell Of what you tried to make of me I’m so much fucking better than you So shut the fuck up If you hate that I’m around then I’m gonna live just to piss you off And it’s a game of Show and tell Of my heaven And your hell I’m so much happier Cuz you fucked with me Cuz I can shove it your face That I lived Didn’t your mama ever teach you how to write a letter? I was at her funeral, trying to make you feel better. Least you could do is say you’re sorry And you want me to be happy Instead of questioning my courage Cuz I don’t fucking write. — It’s a beautiful car? That’s better. It is a beautiful car. — You been playing pretend with the man upstairs, Cuz you killed him sometime ago. Yeah the sun will rise everyday, With or without you, So suck it up. Say you’re sorry. — Why’d you have to call me a faggot? Do you think that healing is just magic? When you put yourself at the top And you come back down just to write your own tragic You say that respect is earned, so why aren’t you earning it? You really thought a changeling could change? You’re such a pussy little bitch. You made me wanna Kill myself But now you’re just an empty shell Of what you tried to make of me I get a little jealous sometimes I get a little jealous sometimes I get a little jealous sometimes And it doesn’t really fucking matter Why’d you have to call me a faggot? Do you think that healing is just magic? When you put yourself at the top And you come back down just to write your own tragic You say that respect is earned, so why aren’t you earning it? You really thought a changeling could change? You’re such a pussy little bitch. — There is no revenge you could ever conceive that would come close to what I would exact upon you, one day. — [January 9, 2010] Thank you for watching our movies Um, we were just - hope you were terrified. And it took a lot of effort. And look at the next clip, so you can… [May 12, 2011] What about me? What about me? What about me? What about me? What about me? La, la, la. [May 12, 2011] We’ve been waiting here for two days. Liar. We’ve only been waiting for about half an hour. About two minutes. [May 12, 2012] It’s a beautiful car. That’s better. It is a beautiful car. Izzy, isn’t it a beautiful car? [May 18, 2013] There’s a paper jam There’s a paper jam I am I am Gary Sutterburg Don’t look at him The twin brother in the room Everyone - where - let’s see the twin brother in the room Miso Miso, you okay? He is not okay. But, when… Is that Elmo? Is that Elmo? In a, in a bath towel?
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I’ve been dreaming of you In a nonexistent meet-cute But I’ve been carrying your shit Since the start And I’m not in love with you Anymore, yeah we both fucked up You’re a diamond in the rough But I was digging so long, gave my soul up I know we kissed in a Nonexistent meet-cute Whatever, I don’t give a fuck About your shitty music or your dresses anymore I was head over heels for you Once upon a time You were a rarity Reduced to a nursery rhyme — I don’t really care who you’re fucking anymore I know you dream of walking out the fucking door All you do is talk, talk, talk, talk Those pretty eyes had sunk into a petty whore You’ve been sending letters, texts, and all these pretty flowers Why don’t you suck it up and just go fucking tell her? You’ve been lying to yourself, getting all dolled up For the makeup to run down your fucking face. I don’t love you anymore, and it’s probably for the best. It would’ve never fucking worked, you know the rest. You’ve got your family and your friends, you unequivocally depend [on]. You play dress-up to impress. I should’ve read the signs, I could see it in your eyes You were always trying to tell me to fuck off I’ve been dreaming of you in a nonexistent meet-cute I’ve been chasing visions of a home I never had. — I didn’t mean what I said, I guess Things have been so god damn hard I’ve been bottling an envy for every Little thing I see I’m not baby dragon anymore I can breathe fire, but what for? Why does it piss me off When I get left out, left out, left out — I don’t want to admit that I’ve been homesick Is nostalgia my Inherent weakness? I’ve been trying my hardest But I’ve still been getting jealous When somepony else is feeling good. But I swear we kissed, we kissed, we kissed, in a— — Nonexistent Meet-cute Nonexistant Nonexistant Nonexistent Meet-cute Meet-cute Oh Nonexistent Meet-cute Nonexistant Nonexistant Nonexistent Meet-cute Nonexistent Meet-cute
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They told me I could be anything Then laughed at me when I tried Do I even know who I am? Or am I overthinking again? Atychiphobia Superstition take a hold of me Thought it should come naturally Just tell me I’ll be fine Fuck this metamorphosis they want I just wanna take my time
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“There’s something I wanna show you,” He said, and smiled at me. “I heard your hums in class again, so I think I’ve got just the thing.” There, in his arms, a wooden-fashioned harp. He said “I can show your heart how to dance.” — I’ll let the music speak for me My soul and Everything will be Okay I know that I’m not perfect I know I misbehave But with this lyre I can forge my name — “Look how much you’ve grown,” he said, “your faults, etched on these strings. Where once was feared an earnest lyric, now holds a heart that sings.” “I’ll pass down all you’ve taught me, this love for life and song,” I cried, “These melodies are swelling, can you hear it?” — They call him Harper A man of simple wonder Broke his back from the weight of all The dreams he wove in us It's been so many years since He stood before me, a mentor So I sing this song in the hopes he knows The voice he raised in me — I’ll let the music speak for me My soul and Everything will be Okay I know that I’m not perfect I know I misbehave But with this lyre I can forge my name — I’ll let the music speak for me My soul and Everything will be Okay I know that I’m not perfect I know I misbehave But with this lyre I can forge my name
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I was in denial of my broken soul Cynical of all the joy they had So I became a monster just to satiate the pain Thought the good in me had all at once been slain — So you wanna know How to kill a monster? Well it’s really quite simple Embrace the fucking Serpent deep inside And when it shows its head Just indulge it, acquiesce Before you know it Somepony else will smash its head in — When you understand You’ll know Kill kill kill kill — Look inside your heart and tell me who you are Is there something different or are you The demon of your past? I’ve been falling where you were before Listen to yourself there’s more to life Than this hateful rouse — I was at my worst before we met I still have a long way to go
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Is this what I deserve? For the mistakes that I had made? Maybe it’s so, and I'm sorry I’ve got no more tricks Up my sleeve No more tricks up my sleeve That you’re never gonna see I feel so lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely Doesn’t it matter to you? Been sticking my head out keeping my eyes On you, but you don’t say shit anymore Why do you deny it? That the signal’s dying When you’re up all night somewhere else Do they know that you’ve been faking it? Playing imitation games with them. I feel so lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely Doesn’t it matter to you? Been sticking my head out keeping my eyes On you, but you don’t say shit anymore Why don’t you speak your mind? Speak your mind at once. But to be honest I’ve been feeling myself Closing off again. I feel so lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely Doesn’t it matter to you? Been sticking my head out keeping my eyes On you, but you don’t say shit I feel so lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely Doesn’t it matter to you? Been sticking my head out keeping my eyes On you, but you don’t say shit anymore
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Does it feel like You’ve been dancing with yourself? After faring an ocean To an isle of delight. Overindulge In an envious revel. Confections that spoil Over time. Once the honeymoon phase is over Maybe our heads will be clear. Cause, love is a water eroded by stone. A force as eccentric as yesterday. — So what, I’m fucking jealous Why’re you so surprised? That the one to run their mouth Felt deserving of the pride I’ve kept my mouth shut For so many fucking years Keeping to myself and masking Out of this fear I don’t know Where to begin I’ve been dancing With my nightmares again Feels like you’ve wanted To run, run, run away So I’ll cherish Another heart — Well that’s just the cost Of limerance It all feels so perfect For a while I’m sorry I didn’t Tell you anything But crying’s easier in secret Baby I’ve been flying a kite Learning how to love life Once more To know the catharsis of Loving again Reminds us of how much We bled — There’s no happy ending There’s no happy ending There’s no happy ending There’s no happy ending
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Just off of El Camino, On the corner of Ponderosa, I had my first kiss, it felt fake But I had to make the most of It. Sipping milk tea with my friends, Austin looked at me and said “Ain’t this shit?” And I said sure, but it was Pretty good. We passed by it on the way To my graduation day, You didn’t have to come But you did Anyway. Oh we wrote stories In my parents’ living room, On my grandma’s old piano, And the Takamine guitar you always Brought. I really wish that I had brought you To that corner where I won My first crane prize, And where I made most of my Friends. The corner I was passing, Now 10 years ago, in that car, Where I had hoped That I could kill Myself. But it’s alright. It’s alright. It’s alright. It’s okay. Cuz my heart was A Ponderosa seed. Ponderosa seed. And we were seabound. We were seabound. 8:27[pm], June 22nd Summer of “12. We made a decision that would surely put us through hell. Yeah, it seemed so simple, it seemed like nothing at all. But embracing this fantasy was our past lives’ curtain call. It started with the mare in the moon, and the wedding too. It wasn’t just a phase, just a doorway to another view. It was the dragon in the mirror and the dream that he had fought. That revealed a better life we could nurture, No Matter What.
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I’m writing to you for the first time in so long You know who I am I’ve got so much to tell you I’ll sing a song about life to come “I don’t wanna grow into these wings It’s just so much pressure Why should I live with the name you gave me? When I could make a name for myself.” I was never running away I was racing to the dreams in my head I found a faith, you could never believe From sewing all the wounds we bled “‘You’re just a kid running down a dark and beaten path’ I never listened, I’ll set a flame to the night Cuz this road you failed just needs light” I’ll be okay I know who I am And even if I can’t fly I’ll spread my wings and try And I’ll keep running Just try and catch me I’ll keep running Because now I know where I am — Sing a song about life — I’ll be just fine I’ll be just fine

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released July 30, 2021

All music, vocals, producing, mixing, and mastering done by Zelda Trixie Lulamoon (Vylet Pony)

Track 1 - Narrated and co-written by Kai (CalamariSpider)
Track 2 - Featured vocals by Chi Chi
Track 4 - Co-written by Voreburger 🍔, AstroEden, CalamariSpider, Sylver Stripe
Track 10 - Features a sample of "Souls of Fire" by Sylver Stripe
Track 12 - Originally written by TCB, remixed & reimagined by Vylet
Track 13 - Features vocals by GalaxySquid & AstroEden
Track 18 - Features a sample of an unreleased song by Vylet Pony & Sylver Stripe

Album cover illustrated by Nekosnicker

Booklet & song artwork illustrated by Nekosnicker, Voreburger, Mataschmata, CassettePunk, Another Pony Artist, Opossum Stuff, and Vylet Pony

Special thanks to Neko, Hazel, Sylver, Klez, Kai, and Eden for all your help, love, art, and inspiration. 2021 was a hard year, but I remained somewhat mentally stable because of you.

"CUTIEMARKS" was conceptualized based on a conversation I had with Kai, who narrated — in short — their thoughts that had inspired the album.

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